FOR YEONGA

I love the song that's playing on my blog right now.
It's a rather old song, supposedly the theme song for the Korean drama Autumn In My Heart.
It's sung by the defunct H.O.T., which stands for High-Five Of Teenagers (what a lame name seriously), and it's from their last album Outside Castle.
Ahhh, after so long I'm still listening to it like crazy.
Once my laptop's fan is repaired and doesn't make so much noise, I'll record my own piano version and put it up here aight!
Since like last year I mentioned I wanna post my recordings here, but after listening to them again, I feel none of them make the mark.
So YES! Recording soon! (:

For 姸歌 (A Song For Lady)

Written by Moon, hee jun
Composed by Moon, hee jun
Arranged by Moon, hee jun

미안해
네게 상처 줬던것
착하기만 하던
너의 하얀 두 볼 위에서
눈물 흘리게 한것

용서해
용서해야만 해요
그대 떠나가는게
나는 너무 두려웠기에
너무 사랑했기에

한땐 그대가 내곁에 없는게
너무나 힘이 들고 또 외로워서
비가 내리던 날 난 비를 맞으며
한없이 울었었죠

그대를 사랑해요
보고 싶어요
그댈 만나 행복했던것만큼
내가 약속할게요
이제 다시는
힘들지도 슬프지도 않을거예요
꼭 돌아와 줘요

미안해요 정말 미안해요
그리고 사랑해요
제가 이 노랠 몇번이나 부르는지 몰라요
자꾸 눈물이 나서

오늘 그대가 너무 보고 싶어
나의 두손에 너의 사진을 꼭 쥐고
너의 얼굴 위에 눈물이 내려와
이젠 너도 울어요

그대를 사랑해요
보고 싶어요
그댈 만나 행복했던것만큼
내가 약속할게요
이제 다시는
힘들지도 슬피지도 않을거예요

이제는 돌아오겠죠
난 믿어요 사랑해

한번만 단 한번만
날 안아주세요
그댈 이유로
다신 울지 않을거예요
나에게는 마지막 사랑이예요
그댈 다신 잃지 않도록 기도해요

Romanised (by me!)

mi an hae
neh keh sang cheo jweo deon keot
chak ha ki man ha deon
neo eui ha yan doo bol wi eh seo
noon mool heul ri keh han keot

yong seo hae
yong seo hae ya man hae yo
keu dae ddeo na ka neun keh
na neun neo moo doo ryeo weot ki eh
neo moo sa rang haet ki eh

han ddaen keu dae ka nae kyeo teh eob neun keh
neo moo na him ee deul ko ddo weh reo weo seo
bi ka nae ri deon nal nan bi reul ma jeu myeo
han eob shi ool eot sseo jyo

keu dae reul sa rang hae yo
bo ko ship eo yo
keu dael man na haeng bok haet deon keot man keum
nae ka yak sok hal keh yo
ee jeh da shi neun
him deul ji do seul peu ji do an eul keo yeh yo
ggok dol ah wa jweo yo

mi an hae yo jeong mal mi an hae yo
keu ri ko sa rang hae yo
jeh ka ee no rael myeo beon ee na boo reu neun ji mol ra yo
ja ggoo noon mool ee na seo

oh neul keu dae ka neo moo bo ko ship eo
na eui doo son eh neo eui sa jin eul ggok jwi go
neo eui eol kool wi eh noon mool ee nae ryeo wa
ee jen neo do ool eo yo

keu dae reul sa rang hae yo
bo ko ship eo yo
keu dael man na haeng bok haet deon keot man keum
nae ka yak sok hal keh yo
ee jeh da shi neun
him deul ji do seul peu ji do an eul keo yeh yo

ee jeh neun dol ah oh keht jyo
nan mid eo yo sa rang hae

han beon man dan han beon man
nal an ah joo seh yo
keu dael ee yu ro
da shin ool ji an eul keo yeh yo
na eh keh neun ma ji mak sa rang ee yeh yo
keu dael da shin il ji an do rok ki do hae yo

Translation

I'm sorry
for the scar I have given you,
For the tears that have rolled down
your white cheeks

Forgive me.
You must forgive me.
I'm so afraid that you will leave me,
Cause I love you so much.

When you weren't by my side,
I was lonely and enervating.
As I was standing under a storm and being hit by the rain,
I cried endlessly.

I love you.
I miss you.
I promise that I will make you happy as much as you did for me.
You will no longer be tired or sad.

I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry. and I love.
I don't know how many times I have sang this song,
since the tears never stopped flowing.

I missed you so much today
I held your picture tightly in my two hands.
The tears are rolling down your face.
Now you are crying too.

I love you.
I miss you.
I promise that I will make you happy as much as you did for me.
You will no longer be tired or sad.

I believe that you will come back to me.
I love you

Once, Just once, embrace me.
For that reason, I wont cry anymore.
You are my final love.
I'm praying that you will never forget me.

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I love this song!
LOL.

Played pool again today.
Kelvin won Andy twice, Kenneth twice, but only win me once.
CUZ I WON THE LAST ROUND.
ZOMG.
I am so uber happy.
And is I black ball correct pocket again leh!
I thought Andy, Kenneth and I are all going to lose to him today lah.
But I WON!
(: (:

Korean class today rocks!
I so happy, cuz whatever the teacher taught, I already knew!
The Korean phonetics, that is.
My friends were like, 'what?' when I could just listen what teacher said and wrote down in Hangeul.
LOL.
Korean rocks my ankle socks.

On a random note, I suddenly remembered what Jassshole sang on the bus while 74 was at the AMK station dropping people off.

Get down, get down.
Get off the bus right now.
(To the tune of Backstreet Boys' Get Down)

It's damn funny ok.

On another random note, I love Mango Red Tea with Jelly!
Someone please buy for me, LOL.

Now 18 April, so,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAIJING!

Tag reply:
Dyn: Yes yes Ma Maison again next time!! My cardigans also boring colours! Black and white! LOL. Nutella! I treat you next time (: Pictures soon la! I so lazy lah. HAHAHA.

1ST DAY OF SCHOOL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEN YA!!! (:
Seeing you on 28th YAY!

Today first day of school. ZOMG.
I went school early as I mentioned to watch NRA perform for CCA Fiesta.
Met Jassshole at bus stop, then took 74 and Mich hopped on to our 74. LOL.
I bought belts from Mich!
Jassshole and Mich has an online shop, Electriklipz.
Go take a look! (:
Went up to studio, and they were all getting ready for the performance.
Took photos of course! (:
Had a nice talk with Mich today as well. (:

Class was at 1pm, so I met Vanessa outside library to go up class together.
DEL teacher is same as AEL teacher.
She's funny man, and Ahgoon is scared of her.
After class, Power Rangers want to go eat ice cream at Island Creamery, but rain super heavy.
Walk to the school entrance already nearly drenched.
But fun sia, I never felt fun while running away from the rain. LOL.
We took cab to Creamery in the end.
And ordered ice cream!
NUTELLA!!!! ZOMG.
I love it.
But today no Apple Crumble. ):
Chatted and laughed of course, with the RRB around, we never get bored.
LOL.
And then, rushed back to school for some NRA phototaking.
I thought group photo, end up its for some stupid magazine.
I did baby freeze in the pictures!
HAHA.
Once on the left side, once on the right side.
I wanna learn the one that Dune can do!
She's so dope lah.
Must act dope, act cool, act sexy lah.
Weird weird de.
HAHA.
And KSCBs DID BREAKER POSE TOGETHER!! (:
YAY.
I hope we get a copy of the photos, but I doubt we can.
And today I took bus with all the KEY the SIAO and the CHAR, but not all together.
THIS FRIDAY YAY!
We'll be taking bus together already.
HEHEHEHEHE.

AHHHH FIRST DAY'S TMR

AHHHH YEAH IT'S 15th APRIL SO 6 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMMELINE KOH PEI SI! (:(:

Kbox with Dyn baby, Andy, Kenneth, Kelvin, Teng Yeow and Yan Chao on Friday.
Uber uber uber fun!
We all went mad and they keep choosing all the uber geyan songs.
Like Da Yan Jing, Ai Bu Pa, all the super old school songs lah.
The RRB really very scared of taking photos lah.
Forever hiding their faces.
Only at the end when we take group photo then they got face to see the camera.
HAHAH.
Played pool again at Lucky Plaza, and met Eugene there.
Long time never see him already, and his hair so weird now.
Then later on RRB, me and Dyn baby went to sit somewhere and have a drink and chat.

Yesterday went out for dinner with my family to celebrate my birthday.
HAHA usual practice, cuz we celebrate it 1 week early every year.
Wanted to go to Ma Maison, the restaurant I went with Dyn baby during Vday, but fully booked!
Ended up eating at Fish & Co.
So boring right.

Ahhhh my coming week is jam-packed!
And tomorrow's freaking first day of school.
ZOMG.
I don't feel ready.
Although most of my other friends are.
Even though tomorrow's gonna start at 1pm, I'm still going to school early.
To watch the NRA people perform for CCA Fiesta.
And after school tomorrow, going eat ice cream with Vanessa and RRB at Creamery!
ZOMG NUTELLA AND APPLE CRUMBLE!
Who cares if I have cough.
I miss my ice cream.
HAHAH.
And then later on must rush back to school for NRA phototaking.
Forever so late then get informed one.
Haiz.
Okie, I think I need to sleep soon.
Pictures SOON hahaha.

Tag replies:
Dyn: You got your cardigans by now already right? YAY! The mud/cheeko! Jansen only pretend to be big and wanna whack me only. My dad around he surely don't dare. LOL. HE must be my superman! LOL.
Shaohui: Ahhh cousins pics up soon lah ok. HAHA.
tty: Yeah you damn cute man! I'm gonna see you soon tzeyin!!!! ZOMG. I chua tio when I saw my Ahgong on TV lah.
Chenya: YAY I'll see you on 28th!!! (:
JASSS: Where to get those cardigans!!!! I WANT!!!!! I love you too Jasssholey. What's a fakecard?

SUPER SUAY DAY.

Okay I had a damn unlucky day today.
Maybe not.
But these events can make me conclude that I'm unlucky today.

First.
Mom woke me up by calling me at 7.30am to tell me that my sister is late for school.
And she told me to wake up and go down help my sister get a cab.
I was like what???
I still had to wash up and change lor!
By that time dunno how late already.
And calling me at 7.30am ain't the problem.
The problem is that I HAVE NO SCHOOL TODAY.
Sucks la.

Second.
Because my mom 'annoyed' me with her calls, I missed waking up to go to school to study.
I woke up like near 8.45am when I'm supposed to meet my classmates at 9 plus in school.
Then I went to the bus stop.
As I was about to cross the road, my 73 zoomed away!
And okay, I had no choice but to wait.
Then I waited.
And waited.
And waited.
Since around 9am.
Till 9.20am!
Damn long can.
I got off at the AMK MRT bus stop to take 74.
And stupid 74 damn long too.
I got up the freaking bus at 9.45am.
All the other buses at that bus stop came at least twice!
Damn annoying.
But I reach school quite fast though.
10.20am.

Third.
I came home and waited quite long for the lift and I had no idea why it took so long.
Okay when it came, I took it of course.
Then at my floor, the doors tried to open.
BUT IT COULDN'T.
I was freaking scared la.
I never got trapped in a lift before.
I pressed the door-open button like a million times but still never open.
I freaked out and tried calling my house cuz my sister was at home.
But my phone's freaking weird.
Somehow I'm very sure that I was going to call my house number.
But instead the crazy phone called Jassshole.
I faster cancel the call.
Then luckily the lift moved.
Or maybe unlucky.
Actually I thought I was unlucky that it was moving.
What if the cables snapped and the lift fell?
OMG.
Okay it didn't.
It went 2 floors down, and the doors OPENED.
I freaking ran upstairs to my place la.
And I intended to call my mom to tell her not to take that lift.
But she was already home.
And both she and my sister took the freaking same lift.
ALL THREE OF US GOT STUCK.
What the hell.
Mom told me to call dad but I forgot.
Anyway I think he didn't take that lift.
Either that or the repairman came.
OMGDY.

Fourth.
Actually this supposed to be before third.
I accidentally scratched my face with my chipped-off nails.
DAMN IT.
And my sister says it's quite bad.
Till now I haven't really seen it.
LOL.

SEE LA.
FREAKING SUAY.
I HATE IT.
But then again, I MIGHT be damn lucky tomorrow.
Who knows?
HAHA.

In the morning after studying halfway (not really though, LOL), I went to Rachel's place to take the limousine her parents booked to go to the airport.
Rachel's naughty, she teases her brothers all the time.
But it's so funny to see the sad expression on Issac's face.
Gabriel doesn't give a damn though.
LOL.
Rachel, Gabriel, Issac and me took the Mercedes cab and her parents took the cab that was like a bus cuz all the luggage was in there.
Reached the airport, and Rachel and Gabriel's friends came to send them off.
We went for lunch, and Rachel's mom treated us.
So nice of her. =)
And I seriously think I'm inhuman.
Cuz it's the first time I didn't cry when she left.
Maybe the truth hasn't sunk in.
Which sucks.
Cuz when it does, I'll start feeling lost.
No more bestie close to me.
But she's forever close to me in my heart.
And I forgot her New Zealand address.
Probably cuz I thought she was gonna stay here for good.
Apparently that was what she thought too.
And she says, blame her fickle-minded parents.
So naughty.
HAHA.
And Aunty Joyce hugged me.
I dunno why, but I'm happy about it.
=)
And Rachel promised she'll be back in no time.
Rachel darling if you're reading this MAKE SURE YOU DO AITE!
I'll be missing you so much.

I took train with Rachel's friends Sarah, Jeric, Ben and Jackson and they're pretty funny people.
But all so young!
17 this year only.
HAHA.
Not as though I'm damn old or something lah.
I'm still 17 turning 18 in 2 months and 22 days!
They got off, and I took train all the way to Clementi.
While I was waiting for the bus, I met Bao Wen who was off for some NRA meeting.
Went back to the library, and haiz I dunno if I should study with the 3 guys again.
Lao da and Van supposed to come too.
But they didn't.
And the three guys forever disiaosiao.
Talk cock.
HAIYOYO.
We left at like nearly 6.
Kenneth and I took the 74e, which was supposedly faster.
Actually not, the journey time is about the same as when I take bus after 7pm, 45 minutes only.
And it really goes by the highway for a damn long way.
Probably good for those rushing home.

SIAN.
Today's a bad day.
And luckily I haven't heard that stupid Bad Day song.
Who needs Daniel Powter to tell us we had a bad day?
Sucks.
SUCKS!

Who's gonna take your place, there ain't nobody better.

I WANNA CUT HAIR.

I wanna cut my hair again.
I feel that it has grown pretty much since I last cut it 3 weeks ago.
I wanna get BoA's Girls On Top hairstyle.
I love this hairstyle so much.






I love the necklaces she wore here too.


And this is how it's like if you style it when it's still kinda short.

But I wonder if I'll look weird.
HAHAHA.
But we only live once man.
Should try everything we can!
Maybe you guys can comment a bit and tell me whether I should get it or not.

I'm like turning rebellious.
Rachel says 'like finally'.
HAHAHA.
I want to stay out late.
I hate mom and dad for nagging.
I want to go clubbing.
I want to shop all the time.
I want to dye my hair (but people reckon I look better with black hair, LOL).
I don't really wanna study but I have to.

I was so sick yesterday.
Eww.
I used like uber alot of tissue paper.
And I didn't go Compro.
Jassshole and I stuck together from 1pm to 12am.
HAHAHA.
We watched videos, then she had lunch.
And went studio to sleep, dance, and dance.
I MUST FINISH LEARNING RAIN CHOREO.
LULU choreo-ed to BoA's Can't Let Go.
It's dope can!
She dance like freaking nice la.
Dinner, talked, then went for class.
Ytd's class like alot of locking.
My arms damn ache.
I prefer Me and You choreo.
I hope she continues it.

We left uber late yesterday, at around 11.20pm.
But the bus didn't come till like 11.40pm.
Uber long.
I reached home 12.20am.
Haven't achieved that timing dunno since when.

Woke up to go Technique class this morning.
I was pretty reluctant to go actually, but since I'm awake then I go lor.
Seriously that dunno-what-turn is so difficult.
I can't do it.
Haiz.
Peurette (sp?) I can't do it on my left leg.
Only on the right.
I felt like a loser when it seems like everyone else can.
Nevermind I'll work hard.

Met Rach, Dyn, and Rach's HCIS friends today.
We all were talking at Lucky Plaza Macs.
And then headed to Cine to play pool.
This friend of Rach's damn annoying.
He can't stop saying sorry.
Bloody annoying la.
But very funny.

We ate at Long John's.
Dyn and I were so bored cuz Rach was talking to Stella.
And Stella's friends asked her loads of stupid questions.
One especially funny.
Xiaoming was walking in the park, when he saw a $50 note and a dead fish on the floor.
Xiaoming picked up the dead fish and not the $50 note.
Why?
Highlight below this line for answer.
That's cuz Xiaoming is a cat.
Let's just go bang the wall.
SUPER FUNNY LA.
Okay maybe not quite.
But still.
Okay another.
The big bad wolf was on the MRT.
Little Red Riding Hood boarded the train, but the big bad wolf did not eat her.
Why?
Highlight below this line for answer.
No eating is allowed on trains.
SIAO OKAY.
Dyn and I nearly died laughing.

We walked around Heeren after that, and Rach left to meet RW.
Dyn and I like random walking around.
I want more long sleeved tops!
I need money.
SERIOUSLY.
I haven't been shopping for like a million years.
SIANS.
I NEED TO SHOP.
I don't even have money to buy a pair of gold hoops that cost $3.90.
Loser right.
AWWWWWWWWWW.
Money's not everything, but without money you can't buy anything.
YEAH.
JOB PLEASE COME FIND ME.

And Rachel's flying to NZ in 2 days.
I'm gonna miss her like crazy.
Seriously.
Wonder when will be the next time I see her after she leaves.

Oh baby, I'm missing you.

STOP SAYING LAC AR!

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I copied exactly the amount of lac ar Kenneth typed to me during compro.
AND IT'S CONTINUOUS.
I told you they can't get enough of it.
And I can't get them to stop saying it.
OMGDY.
STOP IT PLEASE.
I BEG YOU GUYS.
Okay, I admit I say it once in a while.
Just to try and be funny!
Not funny anymore la.
ARGH.

Anyway.
I'm sick AGAIN.
Damned the bloody weird weather.
One minute hot, one minute cold.
And today the whole day practically cold.
Everywhere cold.
Outside cold.
In the bus cold.
In the LT cold.
In the classroom cold.
In the canteen cold.
In the library cold.
At the bus stop cold.
AIYER.
I must rest well this weekend.
Next week, chiong to study already!
Exams really near.
And I have EM3A CCT tomorrow.
I've yet to get started.
I'm so dead.

No dance after this week till after Chinese New Year.
I'll miss it.
But I need to brush up on my schoolwork first.
And CNY!
New clothes man!
I can't wait.
And I hope I can use my angpow money to get my Ipod!
HEHEHHE.

OGAY, STUDY EM3A.
TILL I BLOG AGAIN!

I LOVE YOU DANCE!

I FEEL SUPER HIGH TODAY.
Technically yesterday though.
But yeah I'm so high.
That's cuz I danced like crazy today.
And also LULUku and Farid and Lav said that I improved!
I'm like UBER UBER HAPPY.
I like Bo Jian Dai choreo.
It's dope.
Especially the Wou Wou Wou part.
LOL.
And I learn Rain choreo too!
Not all but soon I will!
It's OMGODDY SO DOPE.
I'm really working hard.
Not just because the Funka name list is out and I'm not part of it.
But I'm working hard for myself.
Dance is something I like doing.
I may not be that good yet, but I am trying to improve.
So yeah JIAYOU GAMBATTE HWAITING TO ME!
I love dance so much.
After dancing and perspiring makes me feel good.
Like as though I just detoxicate myself.
Perspiring it out feels damn good.

Piece of shit.
Later got the stupid Flag Football match.
I don't wanna play.
I hope I don't have to play.
Cuz till now I still don't know the rules.
And I don't really wanna know as well.
I just hope to be the water girl later.
With Rebecca.
Help the guys fill their water bottles.
What a good idea.
And I don't have to wear my bloody muddy shoes.
Say eww with me.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
The only good thing about the match later is that after that I don't have to go for S&W anymore!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
But damn it.
The Bala teacher still wants us to go for CATS.
When we already finished our presentation.
What.
That's ridiculous.

I hope Sunday I'm meeting Rachel and Dyn.
I miss Rachel alot.
And I miss Dyn alot.

Piece of shit.
Compro and EECAD test on Tuesday.
I haven't been a good girl in Compro.
HEH.
EECAD I like always never listen.
But when I did my PCB and routed, I only did twice and I got less than 60 Vias.
Okay no one is gonna know what I'm talking about.
So many of my classmates routed and re-routed like a gazillion times before they got less than 60 Vias.
I'm the pro.
And on Wednesday, we had to solder components onto our PCB.
I was the first to finish.
All the guys in my class are losers.
Lose to a girl sia.
HAHAHA.
Damn happy.
And today we had to use satay sticks to build a firm and strong bridge during ECPRO.
Me and Laoda were in a group, and we finished first.
See, I told you the guys in my class are losers.
All lose to me and Laoda.
Okay Laoda is Laoda.
The worse thing for the guys is they lose to me, the noob in everything!
MUAHAHAHHAAHAHA.
Sinister laughter, but who cares!
Laoda does all the girls in my class proud by owning all the guys.
HAHA.
The three male musketeers are really funny.
Laoda's nickname was derived from Jiu Tou Laoda (literally 'Nine Head Leader', but actually derived when she scored 90+ for every paper).
They say that to preserve her Jiu Tou Laoda name, she has to always get 99 and never 100.
She will take 1/2 hour to do her paper, and use the remaining 1 hour to find somewhere to minus 1 mark so that she gets 99 instead of 100.
It's so funny.
Maybe doesn't sound funny when I say it here.
But in real life it's really funny.

Wictoria LULUku took bus with Ahgoon today.
OMGODDY.
I mean yesterday.
She took 74, and saw Ahgoon.
There was an empty seat beside Ahgoon which was occupied by his huge laptop bag.
She didn't want to sit cuz it was Ahgoon for goodness' sake.
But Ahgoon went 'Sorry arh sorry arh' and hastily moved his huge laptop bag.
Wictoria had no choice but to sit beside him.
BESIDE HIM OKAY.
OMGODDY.
And she texted me in the morning telling me she's sitting next to the pervert who's from my class.
LOLOLOLOL.

Okay I better go sleep.
It's 3am.
I gotta wake up at 7am.
So I'll write more soon.
And so sad I can't go technique class cuz of the match.
NVM.
I'll go next week!
Happy happy.
GOODNIGHTS!

I can't let you go.

I SUCK AT EVERYTHING.

I don't know why, but suddenly I feel that I'm really not good at anything in particular.
I used to think that ECE dealed with computers all the time, that's why I kinda wanted it.
But I end up doing so much Mathematics and Physics.
I didn't exactly have the best grades for Mathematics and Physics while I was in Cedar.
Which kinda sucks now, cuz I'm struggling quite a bit.
I'm good at none of my modules this semester, in fact.
Last semester, I was pretty good at MDCAD, this module that teaches us to draw isometric views and stuff.
And EG2 I was pretty good at it too.
This semester's EM3A sucks.
AEL sucks.
I don't understand why we learn AEL for.
And why people like Laoda can get 99/100.
And people like Joel can get 100/100.

And then, some people will come and tell me I'm good at piano.
Honestly I'm not.
Really.
You think my pitching is good, but it's through all the years of training I've gotten that made my pitching good.
I learnt piano for 12 years, since I was four.
I stopped cuz of O'Levels, and I never took it back ever since cuz I'm so busy with dance.
And dance.
I used to think I was pretty good at it when I was at Cedar, doing campfire items.
But when I came into NRA, I felt so wrong about myself.
Everyone else is like uber good.
I felt as though I was a noob.
And many others who are new to dance can dance better than me too.
I try to work hard, but then again maybe I'm not very cut out for dance.
I don't know.
Some people also think I have a nice singing voice.
But when I compare myself to Rachel, I feel like I'm nothing.

People think my blogskins are nice.
But seriously, there are alot of better ones out there still.
Vanessa says my photo editing is good.
But then, many people can do what I do and I can't do what many people can.
My skills for everything is just very mediocre.
I'm like a Jack of all trades but a master of none.

Although I shouldn't compare myself with others, honestly, who doesn't?
It's only human that I am like that.
I can't possibly compare myself to the worser people and keep thinking that I'm damn good right.
But when I compare myself to better people, I tend to get demoralised.
People around me are mostly very humble, who will help me if I needed any help.
Sometimes its also very troublesome to keep seeking for help.

Ann says for dance, hard work is more important than talent.
But I feel that both are equally important.
If I have no talent, I would need such a long time just to learn something.
And then appear as a slow learner to everyone else.
Everyone needs face, and when you appear being lousier than other people, naturally you'll feel that you've thrown your own face.
It's not always the case, but still, I feel this way sometimes.
I don't know about other stuff I do, cuz there aren't many people around me doing it.
What I'm talking about is dance.
Everything gets harder, especially in technique class.
When I cannot catch up, I feel as though I'm uber un-flexible and slow.
And then people like Alfred will laugh at me cuz I do certain things in a funny way.
I once went for the harder technique class.
Everyone else there was so good.
I felt demoralised while having class.

So many things I need improving on.
Time never seems enough.
I don't seem to have enough time to study.
I don't seem to have enough time to dance.
I don't seem to have enough time to sleep.
I don't seem to have enough time to really sit down and plan for my future.
I feel that nothing I do now is gonna work in future.
I once contemplated to go to New Zealand with Rachel to pursue music and dance.
There's alot more exposure over there.
But then again people there seem to look down on Asians.
I don't know.
Maybe just maybe.
It seems like a good choice, but I also can't bear to leave my family and friends here while I'm abroad.
And then, where do I get the money to study overseas?
I may have to end up taking a part time job.
And then hence I may not be able to concentrate on studying.
And I end up wasting more time.

I feel as though I have no more goal now.
Which is uber bad.
I need a goal, real soon.
I need a direction in life.
If only someone can lead me onto a good path.

Want you in my life.

DANCEFLOOR GROOVE AVENUE

We went to support Groove Avenue at the Dancefloor Competition at Mediacorp today.
Many of the groups were blah.
The judges wise, I like Li Lin and that Bill guy.
You all will know who when it starts airing.
And you'll see me on TV too.
HAHAHAH.
Groove Avenue was good!
There were Sophan, Alex, Yuxin, Wang Qing and Yvonne.
They looked so tired after performing.
But they were great.
Another group was good too.
Just the two of us.
Watch them.

My mom says that I'm Cinderella.
Cuz 95% of the time when I stay out late, I always manage to get into the house at exactly 12am.
LOL.

That's so random.
As usual we took loads of pictures.
But I'm really damn busy and tired.
I'll try to post by the weekend.
If not then it'll be during the holidays already.
Shit man.
Exams are coming.
Like REAL SOON.
9 February EM3A I think.
12 February AEL.
THEN HOLIDAYS.
YAY.
5 days extra some more.
SOOOO GOOD MAN.

Short entry.
Thanks for tagging even though I haven't been replying the tags.
Keep tagging aite!
Makes me happy reading them. =)

BIRTHDAY WISH.

MY FIRST BIRTHDAY WISH FOR THIS YEAR (although my birthday's still quite far away)

To be able to hop onto an airplane to Japan and watch BoA's MADE IN TWENTY ARENA TOUR, the one that's on 21st April 2007!

What a great 18th birthday gift anyone could give me.

Haiz, I'm just dreaming.
Someone slap me awake.
I need to help Vanessa with ECPRO project.
But I keep dozing off.
Darn.
Today's been hectic.
And crazy.
And long.
I dunno man.
I feel that this week is damn hard to get over with.
I feel like just crumbling down.

Okay a really short entry.
Cuz I just thought of that birthday wish when I remembered BoA was gonna do a tour on my birthday.
Longer entries in the weekend I hope.
NIGHTS.