version 30; feat. BoA

I have a friend, she used to always say she will never exchange our friendship for anything else and look what happened now?
I have a friend, who hasn't met me since my birthday cos I think she can't be bothered asking?
I have a friend, who hasn't had lunch with me in school for more than half a year before I graduated.
I have a friend, who always end up not meeting me even though we planned to meet ages ago.
I have a friend, who tells me lies.
I have a friend, who became materialistic.
I have a friend, who cares about nobody but the person who makes her feel very different.
I have a friend, whom I can't believe anymore.

So why the hell did I treat her so well when all I got was shit in the end?

I spent a long time thinking over things that happened over these years. Beginning, yes, you regarded me as your best friend. But things changed when you got together with the guy who makes you feel very different. You are no longer the person I used to know. Why is it that whenever you asked me for something and I always obliged but you never did the same? Why is it that you always have some stupid reason to tell me for the times you failed to turn up?

I don't think I can believe you anymore.

You know who you are and I know you'll be reading this. Honestly I don't care anymore whether you are bothered or angry by me writing this entry, and I don't care if anyone can recognize you through this entry. And I don't think we can ever be back to even normal friends anymore cos I'm just so sick of everything.

I hate people who tell me 'friends forever' cos it never happens to me anyway. Amazingly those people who have never told me that are still my awesome friends. 'Forever' is like some cursed word or something and I hate it.

P.S this should have been up the very night that I found out lovef*cksshit was gone.