Friday, August 10, 2007

舞出彩虹

听 音乐已奏响
千万双期待的目光
凝聚在舞台中央

看 裙角在飞扬
日与夜酝酿的梦想
就在这一刻终于点燃

多少次跌跌撞撞
终究没有退让
从未摇晃 握紧的方向

所有的星光为我闪亮
我创造属于我的辉煌

听 喝彩声回响
热情开始无限高涨
心连成舞的海洋

看 炫耀的灯光
华丽的舞装像花绽放
装载着梦想自由旋转

多少次泪在眼眶
我用微笑抵挡
告诉自己 总会有答案

所有的掌声给我力量
梦想的彩虹就在前方

多少次泪在眼眶
我用微笑抵挡
告诉自己 总会有答案

所有的掌声给我力量
梦想的彩虹就在前方

我用心舞出每一个希望

This song is specially dedicated to all dancers.

Many times, we all question ourselves: can we ever really perform well?
When is it truly that we become the subject of the stage?

There are always many obstacles that would obstruct us.
The tough training.
The crazy training hours (late nights during Danzation).
The people.
The technicality.

Sometimes, some people are just inborne with the talent.
Some people just gotta work harder.
I probably belong to the latter.
But somehow I don't find that I'm working hard anymore.
There is no goal.
Unlike Danzation.
We worked hard to put up a good show.

Sometimes training just get me thinking, what am I doing this for?
At the end of the day there is only one answer: myself.

I know I love dance, but I don't know why am I sliding away from what I love doing.
I feel more distant than ever from dance.
Why am I starting to feel so?
I still 'tiao dang' like normal in class.
But when it comes to class time I just can't put my heart in.
I really don't know why.
I can't answer this question.

Last time, all I want to do is to perform.
Now I think I am just not ready that's why I don't get any performances to do.
And it's cuz I'm drifting away.
I also don't think I can handle Funkamania.
Ann says we can form our own groups and then train under her when the time comes.
But I don't even think I'm up to it.
Why am I feeling so negative?
People have told me I improved alot since Danzation.
But I still think I dance like crap.
I can catch steps faster now.
But I can't inject the feel into the steps.
I can't have the 定点 that Ann always focus on.
I really tried, but somehow it's not working.

Perhaps technique class can help me.
But I haven't been for a class since late May.
Cancellations of class due to common tests and performances.
And when there is, I stupidly injured my tailbone and I can't go.
What's gonna happen to all the hard work I put in?
All my chaîné turns, pirouette turns sure deproved.
I know I'm supposed to practice at home.
But I don't know why I just can't bring myself to do it.
And bloody hell, the tailbone does hurt still.

Wahkao. I feel super emo these days.
Emo about dance.
Emo about changing class.
Emo about being afraid that I'll lose the Power Rangers.
I really love this bunch of friends.
And I'm so afraid this friendship will just go down the drain after we change classes.
Everyone forgive me if I keep meeting up with them.
Not much time left already.
It's just another 2 weeks till sem ends.
And 2 months to a brand new semester.
The first semester in poly I would have without them.
Our class took our last class photo on Tuesday.
Looking at the fun we all had, I really really can't bear to leave the class.
Sometimes unknowingly my heart turns sour and I really feel like crying.
I wonder how would all the friendships turn out after the breaking up of our class.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June (camp at JW)
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon

And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly


Will we all be friends forever?