DEDICATED TO MY DEAREST

FOR ALL THOSE TIMES YOU STOOD BY ME
FOR ALL THE TRUTH THAT YOU MADE ME SEE
FOR ALL THE JOY YOU BROUGHT TO MY LIFE
FOR ALL THE WRONG THAT YOU MADE RIGHT
FOR EVERY DREAM YOU MADE COME TRUE
FOR ALL THE LOVE I FOUND IN YOU
I'LL BE FOREVER THANKFUL, BABY
YOU'RE THE ONE WHO HELD ME UP
NEVER LET ME FALL
YOU'RE THE ONE WHO SAW ME THROUGH
THROUGH IT ALL

YOU WERE MY STRENGTH WHEN I WAS WEAK
YOU WERE MY VOICE WHEN I COULDN'T SPEAK
YOU WERE MY EYES WHEN I COULDN'T SEE
YOU SAW THE BEST THAT WAS IN ME
LIFTED ME UP WHEN I COULDN'T REACH
YOU GAVE ME FAITH CUZ YOU BELIEVED
I'M EVERYTHING I AM
BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME

YOU GAVE ME WINGS AND MADE ME FLY
YOU TOUCHED MY HAND, I COULD TOUCH THE SKY
I LOST MY FAITH YOU GAVE IT BACK TO ME
YOU SAID NO STAR WAS OUT OF REACH
YOU STOOD BY ME AND I STOOD TALL
I HAD YOUR LOVE, I HAD IT ALL
I'M GRATEFUL FOR EACH DAY, YOU GAVE ME
MAYBE I DON'T KNOW THAT MUCH
BUT I KNOW THIS MUCH IS TRUE
I WAS BLESSED BECAUSE I WAS LOVED BY YOU

YOU WERE MY STRENGTH WHEN I WAS WEAK
YOU WERE MY VOICE WHEN I COULDN'T SPEAK
YOU WERE MY EYES WHEN I COULDN'T SEE
YOU SAW THE BEST THAT WAS IN ME
LIFTED ME UP WHEN I COULDN'T REACH
YOU GAVE ME FAITH CUZ YOU BELIEVED
I'M EVERYTHING I AM
BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME

YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME
THE TENDER WIND THAT CARRIED ME
THE LIGHT IN THE DARK
SHINING YOUR LOVE INTO MY LIFE
YOU'VE BEEN MY INSPIRATION
TO THE LIES YOU WERE THE TRUTH
MY WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE
BECAUSE OF YOU

YOU WERE MY STRENGTH WHEN I WAS WEAK
YOU WERE MY VOICE WHEN I COULDN'T SPEAK
YOU WERE MY EYES WHEN I COULDN'T SEE
YOU SAW THE BEST THAT WAS IN ME
LIFTED ME UP WHEN I COULDN'T REACH
YOU GAVE ME FAITH CUZ YOU BELIEVED
I'M EVERYTHING I AM
BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME



For all the love you gave me, I'm dedicating this to you.
Sorry, and thanks for letting me know I've been neglecting you.
Sorry for not being there for you when you needed me.
I actually miss the times we could lie in bed talking late into the night.
I'm never sleeping early now and you're never sleeping late.
When I'm awake, you're asleep.
When I'm asleep, you're awake.
When I'm at home, you're not.
When you're at home, I'm not.
Sorry for not being able to have dinners with you all for such a long time.
I miss chattering like a kisiaocharboh at the dining table every night.
I miss Mommy.
I miss Daddy.
Most importantly, I miss you.

Sorry, Xiaohui. I'm really sorry.

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Sometimes, I really hate the hectic schedule we have for dance. I haven't been having a proper conversation with my family for such a long time. I can't even remember when's the last time I had dinner together with them, besides that day when my cousin got married. I miss mommy's cooking and the soup. I miss daddy's nagging. I miss talking to my sister. I feel that I've neglected her like crazy. I'm so so so sorry. My mom calls me everynight asking why am I not home. My dad goes out to the bus stop to fetch me when it gets too late. My sister is asleep by the time I'm home. I'm breaking down. I miss home. I wanna stay home. But I can't. I can't wait for production to come, at the same time, I can't wait for it to end. I'm missing my family like crazy. I don't think I see them 24 hours each week. Which means I don't see them for a day. Sometimes I don't even see mom for a day. When she goes to work I'm sleeping, and when I get home she's asleep. What can I do? I don't know what I can do. I don't miss staying home. I miss staying home when my family is around. I want to truly be at home. But when will the time come?